MY FLIGHTS

Life is so much interesting. On my trip to Swansea and back, I managed to meet with interesting people. On my way back to Malaysia, I was sitted beside a lady whom I found very interesting. The 7 or more hours of flight doesn’t seem that long. We chatted about many different subjects and end up finding that we do share kindred spirit. She is writing a novel of her life and I have always believe that everyone should write something about his or her life. Many of her views I shared. Although she is not a muslim, we do find similarities in our thoughts. How interesting!

Allah is great! He enables us to relate to each other through different means – we can share ideas, thoughts, experiences, love, passion and many more. It doesn’t matter where you are from and how you look like, somehow you just relate. I believe that if we open up our hearts to listen to others, we will be able to be successful in life. Not only successful, but people will love us. Sometimes, you don’t understand why you are loved but with sincere hearts and intention, Allah makes anything possible. In some people, relating to people doesn’t come naturally. But it takes years of experience to improve and to realise that you really have improved when you see changes in people when they relate to you. People are mirrors to you. You can’t see yourself or how good or how bad you behave. Most often than not, I believe what goes around comes around. We can only control ourselves and relate to others the best way we know how. No matter how people treated you, most important is you treat them with kindness to please Allah. You don’t need their praise of how kind you are or what you have done for them, but it is all for Allah’s sake. I have met many people in Swansea whom taught me so much about human relation and I really respect the way they sacrifice their comfort for others. Their sincerity, you can see in their eyes and in their words. May Allah bless them and help us to be like those whom Allah pleases.

My Lost Quran

In this flight (London - Doha), I lost my favourite Quran. I love this Quran because I wrote important points of Sheikh Abdullah’s teaching. How can I be so careless? I am sad because I feel like I have lost my sheikh! O Allah, help me to replace this with some thing better. Perhaps you want me to go on with my life. I know that I am still holding on to the memories of Swansea and thinking about how I miss my sheikhs. Perhaps You want me to let go and continue searching for that light somewhere else wherever I go. To have hope that You will guide no matter where we are. Is that it??? I remember once Brother Asim told us that when his sheikh was leaving Swansea, he thought, that’s it. He’ll never get someone like him. But Allah replaces his sheikh with another sheikh. Probably the same thing will happen to me. Will I find the same light that I found in Swansea, in Malaysia now? I believe Allah will guide me, ameen. O Allah… I always have good opinion on You. Sometimes when I think of You, I feel like having a big hole in my heart.. how can I describe it? Your love is so great that I feel that I am missing something that hurts me. And when I think of the prophet, I feel the same. It is like you want to meet him so much that you don’t really know how it feels like if you meet him but you sure feel very hurt inside because somehow you don’t really know if you can meet him very soon. Of course you have hope of the meeting, but you know you can’t tell when the meeting will happen. How great it is to be able to meet someone who is mercy to mankind. I have met great people that change my life.. surely meeting the prophet is like having the moon in your hand.

But if that feeling is lost, you will feel more hurt. It is like you have lost that special link with Allah… When I think of my Quran again, I can feel a deep hole in my heart. How can I stand losing years of tafseer lessons. Imam Al-Ghazali can afford to memorise his learning materials but not me. But as Allah said, a muslim should have no grief nor fear. So I stand strong and trust that Allah will surely replace it with something better. Yes, he will. Soon! I believe it will be soon!